You may have noticed a bit of radio silence here on the blog, as well as on my social media accounts. While this is a “beauty blog”, I’ve recently been focusing more on the beauty that surrounds me which mostly includes my amazing family. I have to be honest, it feels wrong to be posting about my new favorite lipstick when my heart has been breaking.
A few weeks ago I wrote about Veda having autism for the first time publicly. It was somewhat nerve-wracking, not because I am ashamed by any means, but saying it out loud and publicly makes it more real. Being the mom of a child with autism can be challenging, but it also has been my greatest joy. Veda brings so much laughter and happiness to our home (as you will see below!). I have so many thoughts that I want to share, and many have asked about how I felt when she was diagnosed. Those are all feelings and experiences that I do want to share and will share. However, our journey with autism did not start 8 months ago. We knew the diagnosis in our hearts much sooner than we ever saw it on paper.
I’ve had a serious case of writers block today. Most days what I want to write just comes to me, almost like an actual light bulb in my brain. This post has been different. I feel like I have so much to say, and yet nothing is coming. So I’m going to write what is on my mind right now. I usually call it word barf, but for some reason that seems unappealing so maybe we’ll go with word trail mix. Minus the raisins.
I can already hear my family members dying of laughter, not because I am envisioning our family game nights… though those are always full of tears and belly laughs. They are laughing because I am writing a post about games that I love. You see, I am actually not the biggest fan of playing games. Some of the reason is because I’m usually horrible at them, but they also give me anxiety! My mom brain is usually so tired by the end of the day that it can barely tell my hand to pick up the diet coke and pour it in my mouth. Ok, that might be a bit dramatic, but it sure seems that way sometimes!
I turned 30 twenty-two minutes ago. You guys, I just turned 30! What is my life? I am pretty sure that last year I turned 21, so where have I been the last nine years? Oh yeah, kids. And laundry. That’s where I’ve been. Ha! I very clearly remember the day my mom turned 30, and I remember thinking that she was so old. Now that I am here it feels so surreal. In fact, I woke up this morning to several happy birthday messages (which I absolutely adored) and actually had to call my husband to ask him if it was in fact my birthday and if I had somehow missed the last glorious day of my 20’s. It honestly felt like I was either losing my mind, or that I was right in the middle of a Twilight Zone episode. Side note- does the fact that I know what the Twilight Zone is make me old?? (Curse you Disney for changing the Tower of Terror!)